Sunday, February 20, 2005
Blah
I'm feeling fairly crappy today. Not physically by any means, at least no more than normal. Emotionally I am a nightmare today for some reason. Maybe I have some sort of chemical imbalance or something. I really don't know why I feel like this, except for the fact that I am very lonely anymore. The last six months have just been utterly miserable. Everything that was important to me is gone. Juddy is dead. Nicci left me. Tim is in Iraq.
All I've got left is my family, and they are increasingly getting on my nerves. So I am slowly pulling away from all of it. I go to work, and spend the rest of my time alone in my room. I get by with as little emotional attachment as possible. I trust and feel for no one. The internet is really my only connection to the outside world that I don't instantly put up a wall against. I don't let anyone see how I really feel. Nobody cares anyways.
All I've got left is my family, and they are increasingly getting on my nerves. So I am slowly pulling away from all of it. I go to work, and spend the rest of my time alone in my room. I get by with as little emotional attachment as possible. I trust and feel for no one. The internet is really my only connection to the outside world that I don't instantly put up a wall against. I don't let anyone see how I really feel. Nobody cares anyways.
